For over forty years I have been in an abusive relationship. I am not the victim in this scenario. I am the abuser. Over these years I have blamed my body for the abuse it has endured. I have held my body responsible for my suffering and expected it to be the sole source of my happiness. I have told my body that she was never good enough. Day after day. Year after year. It’s time to apologize. Dear body, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I told you that you were never good enough. I’m sorry that I starved you. I’m sorry that I compared you to every other body I saw. Measuring you against all others. I’m sorry I made your worth about a dress size. A number on the scale. I’m sorry I never let you feel